June 2012
1 post
If only you’d see life with my eyes.
May 2012
29 posts
Feels like a supernova trapped in a bottle.
And knowing all of this makes everything seem so futile.
Nothing will ever be the same; not the way I look into anyone else’s eyes, not the way I hold their hands, no one can ever replace the memories I had with you.
Sad. And lonely.
Of course you don’t.
You’re happy, and its all that matters to you, doesn’t it.
One of us has to suffer.
Do you not see how things just can’t equate out to both of us being happy if we’re not together?
Listening to Adele makes me so sad.
blah. fucking bad mood.
No one can help me..
I still really don’t see how you can put aside all the memories we have together. They’re still so overwhelming for me.
That sense of pure hopelessness when you know for sure that whatever you want isn’t going to become reality.
I really miss those days.
used to be able to put my hands around your waist and call you mine.
Secretly wanting you to hold on, secretly hoping for a way to go on..
Just don’t understand how life can be so unfair.
What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you really that insensitive to my feelings? What makes you think that I would want to see you, let alone in front of all your friends and family, after what you said to me? If you meant what you said then it doesn’t fucking matter whether I’ll be at your stupid party or not, because I have no place there.
I’m missing and hating you so much at the same time my mind is in a mess.
Or maybe I’m just plain wrong, and totally delusional to think that you’ve gotten over the past 4 years in under a month.
Its not that you can’t feel the same way about me anymore, its because theres someone else who’s filling that big gaping hole in your heart.
I wonder if you’re hurting as much as I am..
damn sad.
Sometimes all you have gives up on you, and you can do nothing else but to follow suit.
re-trace:
It was a mistake Right from the start
I feel so miserable
But does anybody hear me?
Lack of motivation
Lack of drive Lack of some love.
I really cannot do this.
Especially when I’m
All alone.
stop emo-ing! you’re not alone!
I don’t understand how you can live with it.
You must not have loved me a lot if you can deal with it.
This isn’t at all fair, and I’m the one stuck with it.
Live life expecting to live a short one, only then will you stop looking back at your past and fretting about your future; but instead appreciate the present.
And the loneliness and attention seeking begins. >_>
I’m so obviously caught in this break-up cycle shit.
I really miss you. ):
April 2012
6 posts
sigh, I miss you. ):
Don't know if I should be happy or sad that you're...
The story
And it started all over again It was just after I passed out of my Recruit life that I met you again; we hadn’t seen each other in the longest time then. I was still apprehensive of seeing you, I was still bitter about what happened the last time. I didn’t talk much the entire night, but you were cheery. We were at East Coast Park in the middle of the night, sitting down on a stone...
I might have just committed mental suicide.
Sometimes I just want to die.
March 2012
2 posts
If you ever loved two people at once, and had to choose one, choose the second, for if you truely loved the first, the second wouldn’t have come into the picture at all.
I know you deserve so much more than who I am, its eating me up from the inside.
October 2010
2 posts
maybe that special person really is you.
I’m going crazy.
September 2010
5 posts
I know you read my blog.
And it pains me to say “I told you so” to everything you recently realized went wrong in your life.
I tried saving you, that was my best shot, really.
Unfortunately I’m not good enough, and I’m different than before. I’m just a jerk now and I want to give up.
I want you. But I also want you to start saving yourself.
I miss the old...
because you’re happier the way you are now, and i don’t have to spoil that for you.
I need a drink, I need a smoke, I just want to feel dead.
I’m sad and all I really want is to pour my heart out to you.
Fuck why can’t two lost souls become one when we’re already in front of each other?
August 2010
1 post
I am sad, so sad it makes me sick to my stomach, or even my soul.
May 2010
23 posts
I know I said I quit Tumblr, but I just had to let this out. Since this could very well be my last post ever, I suppose it shouldn’t hurt to share my disappointments with anyone who’s willing(or bored enough) to read.
In my life, I would suppose one of the most important lessons I’ve learnt is to treasure your friends every day. With every moment and opportunity you have,...
Goodbye tumblr, was great having you.
But there are too many people whom I don’t want reading my thoughts, and too many people who don’t really care.
Someone said the opposite of love isn’t hate, its indifference. Thats why I don’t hate you, but I really can’t give any less of a shit about you.
Go away. I don’t want to have anything to do with you ever again.